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A new beginning...

I thought I let go...I thought I forgot...But deep inside my heart...I still can't forget...Forgive and forget is such a nice phrase to use...Why can't I do it...Recently, I realised that something heavy on my mind was let go...Though I still am thinking about her, I just can't forget the fact that we can't be together again...

Sometimes, I just want to be a boy...Can whine, can cry...Where is all the carefree life I have been leading for the past few years or may be 19 years of my life...About a few months ago, I lost myself...I am getting it back...Even though I still act at my weirdest when I remember about you...Yesh...I try to act like a kid..I hide my feelings...I hide it yesh...

I thought about how it feels if you are mine forever...It felt weird but now when your gone, I felt like having you forever...Well, I just hope you will ever come to me for help..I will always be there for you...

May be its love after life? Not really after life but you can feel that you treasure someone even more after you lose her...

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Rock rock rock :D

Definition of Love as it is...

"What if she hurt me? What if she left me? What if she died? It will be the end of me. That's why I cut things short." - Ghost of Girlfriends' Past

I felt the same way for her. May be that is why I was so paranoid. I was afraid of losing her, that is why I was acting like that. I hang on till the last gasp but she still left me. It is not that I didn't trust her, but it is just being afraid of losing her.

"If you love someone, let her go." <== Bullshit. See what I did? I let her go and she doesn't even talk to me anymore.

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

Bumpy 2009...Hope that 2010 is way better...

I am feeling like such a girl right now =( Don't know what is wrong with me man...I have a lot to say about how I feel but I don't wish to tell anyone...Not just anyone that I will tell that's for sure...Life just sux...Is it because you have too much time at work that caused you to become like who you are? Thinking about her, another her and more hers when your mind is not occupied? Or issit that once you tasted something sweet, you would want more of it at the shortest time? Yes, I truely believe that I am getting more and more desperate but to be fair, I do not like that kind of feeling. I believe in one and only 1 will do. But what am I doing now?

Then, I found another her. One that I am sure now that I can depend on. But I feel the same way as what i did. The feeling of wanting her so much and the feeling of being insecured just didn't disappear. I know that I am doing the wrong thing but at least, for now, I can tell myself that I don't own her and if she doesn't reply me on time, it is still fine. I do not feel like I have an obligation to constantly talk to her and please her because she is not mine yet. It is very different when you are a boyfriend and your girlfriend puts the "Hey, can you just fuck off? Give me some breathing space will you? I want to be with you but I don't want to talk to you" that sort of feeling. At least I can just leave as and when I like because I have no obligation for now.

I am not a very colourful guy. I am just a boring guy that tries to make people happy. Maybe you will find out that I am not just the guy you thought I was because I am run out of ideas after a long time. Maybe weird is something you can describe me but for me, effort is what I like to use. Effort to please a girl; effort to think about a girl; effort to talk to a girl; effort to not look at other girls etc. DO YOU THINK I WILL DO THAT TO ANY GIRL? Definitely not! I believe that one is enough to satisfy me and I have a responsibility and burden/commitment to pick up a relationship. If you ask me to put in only 50% or 80% in a relationship, I most likely can't do it. I am a 100% guy and believe it or not,I have to constantly excite myself with new ideas of mine or at least thinking about you. I can't rest my brain, stop thinking about things or you when I am awake. That is me.

Well, I just like to be outstanding/weird. I give out of the ordinary answers because I feel proud and excited about those ideas. If the minority is always weird, I will join them. Simply because rich people are also minorities and who dare say they are weird. NO ONE! A damn rich man w/o a handphone or a laptop? A damn rich man wearing shorts and singlet, going shopping? A damn rich man driving a poor man's car? They are weird but have anyone said anything? Weird is so over rated.

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

I got Tagged Damn!

1. HanZhong
2. Carine
3. Lee Jie
4. Angie
5. Wei Jin
6. Lena
7. Zhen Ken
8. Xi Wen
9. Zhen Qian
10. Wei Sum
11. Darryl
12. Diana
13. Ryan
14. Angie
15. Dan
16. Estelle
17. Joshua
18. Rendall
19. Calvin
20. Cassandra

How did you met 14?
[Angie] Taekwondo Mate!

What will you do if you dont meet 1?
[Hanzhong] Go around looking for him?

What if 9 and 20 dated?
[Zhen Qian & Cassandra] Same age ma! Should be blessed =D

Will 6 and 17 date?
[Lena & Joshua] Maybe? But not when Rendall is around!!! He will murder Joshua la...

Describe 3.
[Lee Jie] Wow. Nice legs xD...

Is 8 attractive?
[Xi Wen] Attached. Next!

Describe 7.
[Zhen Ken] One super funny guy =D

Know of any 12's family members?
[Diana] Yup. Her Mum and Dad.

What will you do if 18 broke up?
[Rendall] LOL!!! He has Lena leh...I am not GAY!!

What language does 15 speak?
[Dan] English and Chinese

Who is 9 going out with?
[Zhen Qian] No One!

How old is 16?
[Estelle] 15.

When was the last time spoke to 13?
[Ryan] Last Last Week.

Who is 2 fave singer/band?
[Carine] Me?!?!?! Fei Lun Hei Also I guess

Will you ever like 4?
[Angie] Cough Cough Vomit die!!!

Will you ever date with 1?
[Hanzhong] Of course, He is mine!

Is 19 single?
[Calvin] Should be bah..

Whats 10's last name?
[Wei Sum] Cheung

Will you ever be in a relationship with 11?
[Darryl] He Loves Me!

What's the school of 3?
[Lee Jie] NTU or NUS?!?! Should be NUS bah...

Where do 6 live?
[Lena] Under the overhead bridge xD...Jurong lor

Favourite things about 5.
[Wei Jin] - Being Serious During Class.
- Scolding the kids?!?!
- Watching Lust, Caution!
- Tonning

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

24 March 2008

Life is so boring...So Boring....So Boring....I wish I can go on a holiday la...HAIZ...no one wanna go holidays this holiday that is why I am here blogging boring =(...I should go shopping one day man...Buy all the stuff I want like a girl...MUHAHAHAHAHA...Okay la..I am not Gay or Sexually Transmitted... I just dunno what to do =(...I shall catch a movie soon if I can find someone...At least one person la...COME ON!!!! REPLY TO ME muhahahahaha...xD My leg is still swollen and fat...OMG xD shall wait for it to deswollen/heal!

Kelsen Chong

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

9th International Chung Do Kwan Championships 2008

I found my photos on clubSNAP.com. LOL that was the photo that I was being trashed partly due to injury and partly due to the fact that I am inexperience. Here you go people and thanks to uranium2k@gmail.com for the wonderful photos

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D

9th International Chung Do Kwon Championship 2008! DAY 2

Wake up at 11:33 am cause a lot of people were calling to my house phone and unluckily, it was in my room =(. Wandered around and ate my lunch before deciding whether to go down to support the Singapore Team today or not. Reached at 3+ and the sparring matches Finals about to start. It was destruction before that. Watch a few good matches. Albert was super good la...He won 2 French and brought to the Singapore team a Gold Medal!!! I knew my weakness and mistakes now...I will be back 4 years later!!! Oh btw the farewell dinner was great. Have a lot of fun laughing, singing, dancing etc!!! Bon Voyage to all the teams from different countries that participated in the tournament. TATAZ

Kelsen

Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D